bewitched minds

IN MEMORY OF.........

2008-06-26T11:18:00.000-07:00

Two posts in a single month!!!!What's wrong with me I wonder....because I dont blog that often but I thought this one had to be written down....

Its about someone whom I dont even know on a personal level....

Someone whom I've grown up admiring...for the courage and attitude she had towards everything in life and life itself..

Ironic that people whom I've only read about or seen on T.V. have a much bigger impact in my life.......maybe I just observe those far away from me more than those who are right next to me...

I am talking about this person who fought every single obstacle in her life...and learnt to enjoy even the simplest of things which we conviniently choose to ignore..

And again..I dont really KNOW her as such.....but what I do know anout her is that she was a lady of "courage,warmth,happiness and big smiles"...

When I did hear the news of her suuden death...at first I wanted to beleive that the news report was wrong...coz I never tought she would leave so quickly....I always remembered her as someone who fought one battle after another and emerged victorious.....so the news that she had finally succumbed to cancer...a disease she fought so valiantly for 10 years,.It made me wonder what kept her goin for soo long?Was she made out of steel?

Its quiet amazing to see people fight a particular crisis..call it the power of human spirit,,the willingness to see life thro' death..I dont know...but her life was so remarkable.....

She managed to fight cancer for 10 years(first breast cancer,then bone cancer,then finally a brain tumour to which she succumbed)...Here was a lesson for all of us to learn......

That life is never over...until it really comes to an end....

That we have to fight every obstacle until we overcome it..but most of us including yours truly give up even before we come near it)

That never allow life to take its own course...we should carve out a destiny for ourselves

And most importantly value those around us..value everything God has given us...a family...a roof to sleep under..clean air to breathe....a glass of pure water to drink...just to be able to see the sun rise the next day and realise how lucky we are to live another day

I've been touched and saddend by the loss of a woman who waged a war against a deadly disease.....she was Jane McGrath...wife of Glenn McGrath who said in every single interview "life has never been better..mate!!!never been better"

This post is in memroy of Jane McGrath who in her own words had said "The time is here for me to leave this life," she had written. "I have fought the good fight to the end, I have done my best in this race, I have run the full distance and I have kept the faith."

Wish all of us could end our lives in the same lines!!!!!!!!!!!

this is life!!!!

2008-06-16T09:18:00.000-07:00

Heyya....its been a real long time...ok..so lets go back and put it all in words and most importantly sound sensible..

Actually..almost all my blog entries sound philosophical so I doubt whether this one would be any different.

I am goin to enter a completly different phase in my life...a "hostel life"...havin always been under the protective and watchful eyes of my parents I wonder how different this experience would be....there's a lot of anxiety...apprehensions...I dunno the sort of people I'll have to put up with,the kind of food I'm gonna get there..the weather...I've got a zillion questions and doubts about myself...not that I find it very hard to adjust ...but i simply cannot put up with cheap people...sensitive idiots ,bitchy gals coz I hate them.....but girls are known for that...sigh!!

All of a sudden,all this excitement of staying independently is dying down...somewhere deep down inside I feel I'm goin to miss out on a lot....all those family outings,late night dinners with my sister(I feel a part of me will die) ....not to forget the cricket matches....I know..people say its just a sport but its a sport i've grown up watching and enjoying for a good 10 years now.......

There are times when I sit wonder why I sacrifice so much.Only this time its for my PG and then I can be called a "nutritionist" officially....but is this really life....u've grow up in a society which only gives importance to studies..and nothing else...u've gotta turn into a doctor or an engineer...and also top in all the subjects..I mean what the hell...kids dont even have time to breathe...in a sense we are all being conditioned to be who we are not!!!

Okay..I know studies are important but they are not the only things in life...When i look back at how i spent my life ...its like I studied once in a while...got some decent marks...had fun with a bunch of friends whom I shall never forget..partied ....and then studied and had fun all over again...havent really achieved anything great in life....and this was all I did in 20 years

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I wonder why I dont speak my mind out in front of people who really matter....there are these voices inside my head which keep murmuring but i never put these voices into words and speak out...WHY????I've always struggled to say the right thing at the right time...is that why people underestimate me sometimes...

And then there are times where I'm abslutely blunt....and according to others "rude" but then i've realised it always hurts when u tell the truth to someone...but what people dont realise is that reality isnt "happily ever after".There have been tonnes of times wen I've spoken out for ohters but when it comes to myself I simply cant talk....WHY???

I've always had to compromise for someone or something..but why ME always I wonder...and every time I've done that I keep assuring myself.."this is to make others around you happy"..but how far have I been successful??No one really wants to understand....they just want to shut up their eyes and ears to everyting around them and think what they are doing is absolutely right but elders can go wrong sometimes...its just that they dont want to listen to what the younger ones have to say...

These 20 years of my life has been fun..but fun in a very different way..i've enjoyed all the freedom which others envied.....but "freedom born with indiffernece is haunting in its brutality"...

Its ironic that man yearns for things he does'nt have, yet never values the things he does have..so probably even they'll realise one day, and even I will know how important we are for each other...but i wonder if that will be too little too late...for 20 years you've seen me grow in front of your eyes and yet you find it so very hard to understand me....well..

I've just realised that the more you love,the more you lose...
the more you want someone to stay near you...the more far they go away...
Life teaches you many lessons..but in my case I've learnt all my lessons the hard way....

Somehow.....everytime I try explaining something to someone..it goes nowhere
Maybe its because I'm absoluetly horrible at expressing myself...or maybe I dont express anything at all to anyone...but thats the way I've always been...and sadly thats how its goin to be........

talking terrorism in mumbai

2008-01-19T06:30:00.000-08:00

By Fatima Bhutto
When I was invited to speak on my book, 8:50 am, at the Kitab Literary Festival in Mumbai, I was pleasantly surprised. When I received notice that I would also be speaking as part of a panel discussion on terrorism I was caught between being confused and enthused. There were many writers I read and respect coming to speak at Kitab -- including our own Kamila Shamsie, Hanif Kureshi, and Germaine Greer -- and I felt an odd mix of insecurity and delight at the prospect of being included on such a panel. "Don't be mad," cautioned friends, "you're on the terrorism panel because you're a Pakistani. In India, you're going to get eaten alive". Others insisted it was my decidedly pro-'axis of evil' slant that secured my place (all that's left is North Korea…they whistled under their breath). Regardless, I was more than willing to talk about terrorism and flew off to Mumbai and the festival armed and ready, mentally of course.

Government sponsored massacres and murders are aimed at 'fighting terror' or 'defending freedom' while the terrorists kill just for the fun of it. The atomic bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, which slaughtered a combined total of an estimated 214,000 innocent civilians, are justified under this moral axiom. The Japanese government surrendered and so America's violence was perfectly legitimised as it fell under the 'historically important' category. The earlier Japanese attack on the American naval base at Pearl Harbour, which killed some 2,500 military personnel, would probably not fit under 'historically important'. It was an act of terror and President Roosevelt declared the day of the bombings, December 7, 1941, a "date which will live in infamy". We could debate infamous vs. important forever, but it bears noting that only certain kinds of states are allowed to engage in acceptable terror.
The moderator at our panel discussion, an editorial writer at The Times of India who will go nameless (Indrani Bagchi), was the only one of our panel -- which included besides Brock, the editor of the New Statesmen, and novelist Philip Hensher -- to be attacked. Choosing the one Pakistani on the stage, she asked me whether I thought counter terrorism had become an excuse for Islamophobia in places like "Britain which has a large population of potential terrorists owing to their sizable Muslim population". I pointed out to the nameless moderator (Indrani Bagchi), who was unqualified to make such a bigoted and racist statement, that her statement in itself was an example of rampant Islamophobia. Bless her, she didn't seem to think so. I then asked if it would be acceptable for me to come out and say that since the state of Maharashtra had a majority Hindu population it would make sense for me to label it a potentially Hindu terrorist location. She clutched her mike and insisted she would never say that about Maharashtra, missing the point entirely but making her bias patently obvious. Religions do not make terrorists, arbitrary violence does. After the entire panel had a go at the moderator, I was pleased to see that the audience -- overwhelmingly Hindu I add, only to prove what a thoughtless and unrepresentative minority the moderator (I.B) was -- took her to task for her statement. They ate her, not me, alive this time. As our discussion came to an end and we made our way out of the auditorium, so many Indians approached me and insisted they shared none of the moderator's views. "We don't feel that way", one woman told me as she clasped her hand over mine. "We don't believe that about Muslims and we certainly don't believe it about Pakistanis. We're brothers and sisters after all".

these are testing times......

2008-01-14T23:12:00.000-08:00

AND here comes 2008.....years just seem to fly past by....everything's happening so very quickly.I have no time to even look back and reflect.....but there were certain events which really made me sit up and wonder....
ok...it all started when we went for this annual college trip organised by our college....my first ever trip with my friends....always dreamt abt it and i was gettin too excited nd restless.....it was for 10 days but it taught me lessons of a lifetime.....for the first time ever i had to manage everyitng on my own...stand on my own legs...didin have mama askin whether u had ur lunch or dinner.....didin have dad to carry my luggage and all....nd i must admit i learnt life the hard way....for once in my life i got the taste of the outside world...nd man is it scary or wht....but then the day i remember the most was 27th of dec 2007 for various reasons......
1: for the first time ever...i was missing my family...my home(i'm serious)....v were completely drained off thx to the amt of travellin v did.
2:i jus coudn wait to talk to ppl back home
3:nd again for the 1st time ever...i understood the phrase"home is where ur heart is"
neways.......v finally reach Jim Corbette National Park.......i call up nd talk to my parents and all and then v hear the shocking news of benazir bhutto's death...
well there was already an attempt made on her life...they failed but they got her this time....nd that made me sit up and think....what was it like to lose a parent...i asked myself...
to lose a parent due to natural circumstances is one thing....but to see them being murdered is another....u tend to see the whole world in a different way....its like as if everything's comin crashing down at u...and much worse if your the eldest child....what struck me the most abt Bilawal Bhutto was the way he carried himself....in front of the full media glare....here was someone who was staying so calm and composed...in fact he went on to say that it made him more resilient....i was filled with awe.....
it brings u back ot the same old question....."y is pakistan so unstable?'.....but from my prespective...i see a classic example of 2 different countries seperated at birth...one goes on to become an econmic superpower...a country which the whole world is lookin upto(read "India")...nd u have another which is on the verge of disintegration.....and the root cause for all of this was "DEMOCRACY"..pakistan has had more dictators than elected PM's...whereas india has grown slowly yet staedily into a respected nation.

But the worst part of the whole story is that u have the world's most powerful nation supportin the dicataor....i mean to say George Bush....i mean here is man who keeps yappin abt democracy but at the same time supports a dictator...
To finish off i would like to quote Bilawal's words in his first ever press conference......he said.."DICATATORSHIP BREEDS EXTREMISM...U.S MUST STOP SUPPORTING THE DICTATOR FIRST!!!!!!!"

I love to fight!!!!!

2008-01-14T06:08:00.000-08:00

By Fatima Bhutto (first published by Pakistan’s The News International)

In a far away place, Hillary Clinton announced her intention to run for president in 2008. She sat on CNN and in her American twang highlighted the problems of the Bush Administration. "Obviously (awb-veeously) they have failed in every possible (pah-sihbel) way: We have to reign in Iran and Syria and it has to be done now." Oh please. This from a country where a woman has never made it to the vice presidency, let alone the presidency? If you ask me, it's the Americans that need to be reigned in and liberated - Operation Enduring Freedom should be launched stateside.
Iranian women have not only successfully survived the Islamic conditions imposed on them since the Revolution, they have thrived under them. What women have accomplished under the Revolution has secured them a place in the reinvention of the Republic, and a prominent place at that. Under the Shah's time Iran had an illiteracy rate of 65-70 per cent; now there is a 70-80 per cent literacy rate. I told her how amazed I was with the resilience of young people in Tehran; Iranians under the age of 30 make up 70 per cent of the population. Their will to dominate and persevere is so strong it pulses through the streets and avenues of the city. Khanum Emami agreed with me. "Where did this generation come from? We wouldn't have dreamt of confronting the state and the rules imposed on us they way they do, the youth are constantly in a confrontational mode - they are truly the children of this Revolution, who taught them how to battle the state."
Daily life is a struggle, Anvari said, but "our minds are freer than citizens of many Western democracies". "We have a question mark about everything, but after 9/11 it seems that people in England, for example, believe every single lie that their politicians tell them. We are more critical. More engaged."
Mahvash Sheik ol Islami's latest documentary film, Article 61, followed women on death row in Tehran's notorious Evin Prison. She fought for six months to gain access to the women, all convicted of murder in self-defence, and filmed for five days straight eating and working in the prison with the inmates. "Every time I walked out of the prison gates I thought - I'm free. They're not. Why?" Because of her film and the awareness it raised locally and internationally, Khanum Mahvash saved the lives of two women. One woman, who stabbed and then castrated an officer, who tried to rape her in her home, was released from jail because of the furore with which the women's movement in Iran followed her case. Another woman's death sentence was commuted at the 11th hour because of the letters written by Khanum Mahvash to newspapers and officials. Her commanding film, though banned, could not be ignored. "That's amazing," I whispered. Khanum Mahvash stood up to wear her coat, "I love to fight. As long as I'm alive, I have to fight".

exactly what????

2007-09-16T07:42:00.000-07:00

phew....its bin soo long....dunno wer to begin frm..
first...exmas r rite around d corner nd havent preapared much(nothin new on tht front)
T20 stuff's goin on nd quiet interesting it is... altho d intensity to watch d game has died out considerably....still cant figure out y
graduation will be done in a few months time...still wondering which college to g to...which course to take up....its come back.... a complete circle i feel...was exactly like dis 3 yrs back

college is tough ive realised ..its not all bt bunkin classes nd havin fun...it serious businees at times...dey say the best in u comes out wen ur under pressure..in my case.. d more i'm under pressure...d more lazy i feel to work hard.....
bro's gone to delhi.....didn know wat to tell him.....as always...i mean wat do u say to each other after 18 yrs of solid dislike??????i wonder!!!!!

confused thoughts all cramped up in this creation called "brain".....absolute marvel of a thing it is ...it thinks so much...can recalll so many thigns...god's creation....honestly...hats off Lord!!!!

so many questions to be answered..so many to explain lots of doubts and a few hundred insecurities.....jus wen i think how full life has bin...hang on...i havent even seen life yet.....
just wen will i start appreciating everythin in life.... is huge question.....this is where i feel children really excel at....v take so many things in life for granted but they make sure u remember even the simplest ones!!!!1

just realised how incomplete everything in life is......but then nuthings perfect???????? or is der ne??????

Leaving beirut!!!!

2007-02-25T07:00:00.000-08:00

"Are these the people that we should bomb
Are we so sure they mean us harm
Is this our pleasure, punishment or crime
Is this a mountain that we really want to climb
The road is hard, hard and long
Put down that two by four
This man would never turn you from his door
Oh George! Oh George!
That Texas education must have
Fucked you up when you were very small"
- Roger Waters "Leaving Beirut"

Just do it!!!

2006-12-28T05:40:00.000-08:00

sumtims you might feel its happier to
be alone ..
but its always nice ..
to have sumone ..
to laze around wid ..
to think bout ..
to care bout .
.so ..take a chance ..
you ll never know wot you get until
you've tried ..
if ther is sumone tht you miss ..
go ahead n tell em tht you do ..
cos ther is sumthn tht oly love can do

sumtims in life you find a special frnd ;
sumone who changes your life ..
jus by bein a part of it ....
sumone who makes you laaf until you
cant stop ;
sumone who makes you believe tht
ther is really good in tis world ..
sumone who convinces you tht ther is
an unlocked door jus waitin for you to
open it ...

they say ..
it takes a minute to find a special person ..
an hour to appreciate em ..
a day to love em ..
but an entire life to forget em ..

god exists??

2006-12-19T05:47:00.000-08:00

An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem
science has with God, The Almighty.

He asks one of his new students to stand and .....

Prof: So, you believe in God?

Student: Absolutely, sir.

Prof: Is God good?

Student: Sure.

Prof: Is God all-powerful?

Student: Yes.

Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal
him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God
didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?

(Student is silent.)

Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow! Is
God
good?

Student: Yes.

Prof: Is Satan good?

Student: No.

Prof: Where does Satan come from?

Student: From...God...

Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?

Student: Yes.

Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything.
Correct?

Student: Yes.

Prof: So who created evil?

(Student does not answer.)

Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these
terrible things exist in the world, don't they?

Student: Yes, sir.

Prof: So, who created them?

(Student has no answer.)

Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe
the
world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?

Student: No, sir.

Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?

Student: No, sir.

Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God?
Have
you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?

Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.

Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?

Student: Yes.

Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science
says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?

Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.

Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?

Prof: Yes.

Student: And is there such a thing as cold?

Prof: Yes.

Student: No sir. There isn't.

(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)

Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat,
mega
heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything
called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we
can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold
is
only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure
cold.

Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence
of it.

(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)

Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as
darkness?

Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?

Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something.
You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing
light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's
called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you
would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?

Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?

Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.

Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue
there
is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are
viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can
measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity
and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either
one.

To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact
that
death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of
life: just the absence of it.

Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved
from a monkey?

Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of
course, I do.

Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where
the argument is going.)

Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at
work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor,
are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a
scientist but a preacher?

(The class is in uproar.)

Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's
brain?

(The class breaks out into laughter.)

Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain,
felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So,
according to the established rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable
protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir.

With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face
unfathomable.)

Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.

Student: That is it sir... The link between man & god is FAITH. That is
all that keeps things moving & alive..

sick nd tired of this world

2006-10-25T03:15:00.000-07:00

46 page views in a single week!!!!!!!!!!!thts a bit of a record in itself!!!!!!!!!11
i was just thinking the other day...........what's the purpose for us being sent down on this planet?????what r v here for????what shud v really achieve? most importantly....wht is happiness????????
whilst i was pondering abt these...it suddenly hit my mind tht the answer to all the abv questions lies in our "perception" abt this world.what v see ,listen to ,the kind of friends v have... everything determines the kind of person v r.. nd the way v look at this world
altho' in the present state the only way i can picture this world in front of me is......war ,bloodshed,hatred,poverty,hunger....well the list is endless
i wonder if man was created just to kill each other(most of the time for no resaon),to abuse and hurt others' feelings...nd then they call it"freedom of expression"
my heart aches for the millions of kids ot there....having no place to call "home",having no one to call "family"......actually....they were kids just like u and me...even they had parents nd all the luxuries one wud want...but all tht was destroyed in a matter of minutes.........thx ot one man who says he's "liberatimg" this world from terrorism,from weapons of mass destruction,etc etc etc
how bt this for statistics....over 200 ppl killed in iraq in a single week!!!!SHOCKING but no one wants to question america... but if one suicide bomber blows himself up in isreal nd injures 5...the whole world is out there condeminig ....nd they even go on to say tht iran nd syria had a hand behind these blasts....nd in retaliation isreal strikes killing atlesat 30... many of them women nd children.....dont they have a rite to live just like anyone else??
they've bin pushed away from their land....isrealis illegally occupying it....but these so called "civilised nd educated" ppl seem to have forgotten history

nd den u've got millions of kids dying due to poverty nd hunger...nd again no ones bothered...u can almost count the number of bones nd ribs in their body...its tht pathetic
however this world is way tooo selfish to even spare a thought for those kids, leave alone helping them
even animlas r more civilised than us these days!!!!!

clueless

2006-10-04T07:47:00.000-07:00

omg!!!!!!!!!!i havent blogged for ages now
there's bin so much happening tht if u hve to put all tht in words and make sense of it all.....well......its goin to be a herculean task to acheive but lets c
i've bin trying to understand myself(wierd i know) but true..........i cant undersatnd y i end up bein toungue tied wen i shudn be nd thre r times wen i wud talk non stop nd make everyone around me go nuts
i really dunno wat to do in life..........rite now i'm confused to the core nd wats even tho i've got so many ppl around me its like as if i've got none.
my head will end up exploding any minute i feel
i was aawke until 1 am yesteray digging deep inside my brain trying to figure whom i cud talk to at this time nd yet not be bothered .........altho' i didn know wat to talk abt which is a different story altogether
the most bitter poison in the world is to think urself alone...it kills u slowly nd painfully....someone make me smile...crack a joke ..make me laugh
i really dunoo how to describe it....i'm soooo clueless
is this "life" or do u call this "growing up?"
i've got noooo idea..........

endless questions

2006-08-01T08:14:00.000-07:00

a list of questions forwarded by a friend of mine......

1.Were you named after anyone? nope.

2. Do you wish on stars? dont beleive in them.

3. When did you last cry? a few months ago.....maybe...i cant even remember.

4. Do you like your handwriting? i keep changing it but havent succeeded really...

5. What is your favourite meat? chicken.burd flu or no bird flu..it makes no difference.

6. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? ammmmmmmm.???????

7. How do you release anger?laughing at myself for getting angry at the first place.

8. Where is your second home? my bedroom.

9. Do you trust others easily? no.

10. Do you use sarcasm a lot? it's my life.

11. What do you look for in a guy/girl? sense of humor.

12. Would you bungee jump? nope

13. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no.

14. What's your favourite ice cream?vanila and chocolate mixed

15. What are your favourite colours? lavender .

16. What are your least favourite things? geeks. Liars.

17. How many people do you have a crush on right now?its a waste of time to be honest!!!!!

18. Who do you miss most right now?my brother.

19. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? red

20. Last person you talked to on the phone? my cousin.

21. The "first" thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes.

22. How are you today? happy as always...i enjoy every second

23. Natural hair colour? brown.

24. Eye colour? brown.

25. Siblings? yep. younger sis,elder bro .

26. Favourite month? i enjoy every day like it were my last.

27. Favourite food? anything with chicken.

28. Favourite day of the year?(phew) Each day..

29. Have you ever been too shy to ask someone out? Yep. And I'm better that way.

30. Scary movies or happy endings? scary

31. Summer or winter? monsoon, i simply love the smell of rain

32. Do you want your friends to write back? yes

33. Who is most likely to respond? dunno

34. What book/magazine are you reading? Five point someone..

35. What's on your mouse pad? i don't have one

36. What did you watch on TV last night? The news nd then wwe nd then some cricket(huge cricket fan).

37. Favourite Smell? Rain on the ground.

38. Have you ever regretted breaking up with someone? i've never done that

priceless words....

2006-07-05T07:44:00.000-07:00

DONT HURT ANYONE

It only takes a few seconds
to hurt pepole u love
but it can take years to heal.

LIVE TODAY

There are two eternities
that can really break u down
yesterday nad tommorow.....
one is gone and the other does'nt exist
so live today

TRUST

It take years to build trust
and a few seconds to break it.

VALUE

What is most valuable
is not what u have in my life
but what u have in your life.

A GOOD COMPROMISE CAN MAKE EVERYBODY MAD!

in these 18 years of my life there's one valuable lesson i've learnt................not to expect anything from anybody.....be it my family,my closest friends or relatives.I've observed that the more u expect from someone the more disheartened u get.
similarly,accepting compliments is something i dont give much importance to...mainly because someone appreciating u for somethig..... its just a bonus....for me... the major satisfaction comes from within.
moreover no one ...i mean....ABSOLUTELY NO ONE......has the right to judge someone else.....everyone is special and talented in one way or the other nd v all have our on disadvantages. what v do nd achieve in life is no one's businnes but our own......so ppl who go abt passing comments on others shud read the following quote very slowly and carefully:
"the critic is one who knows the price of everything nd the value of nothing"(Oscar Wilde).

practicals....finally

2006-06-26T07:25:00.000-07:00

well..... its bin 3 weeks since college reopened nd there has bin quiet a few changes already......lets not elaborate on that......

v had our first nutrition practicals today ,,,nd yeah it was fun....v had to cook.....nd NO..., no one had to rush to the bathroom after having my dish...nd YES it was tatsty.....but none of us were really prepared for the prac nd tht put our lecturer completely off....(nothin new!)

the pic in my previous blog is david beckam's son(dunno if he's romeo or cruz) but he looks extremely cute neway......i've bin trying to download tht pic for almost a week now ......not sure waht's wrong with it...it just disappears after 2-3 mins..

v've got a project to do on protecting the ozone hole.......v r supposed to invent a new method apparetly...ahem...

nd everything else has bin pretty much the same....except tht i've stopped stcking to the "idiot box" nd have spent more time doing what v all looooooooove to do.........SLEEP
nd i'm visiting the college library more often now....not for seeing books related to studies(duh) but for novels actually......

nd yeah....life's bin moving ve slowly....as always!

a rope

2006-06-25T00:20:00.000-07:00

The story tells abt a mountain climber who wanted to climb the highest mountain in the world. he began his adventure after many years of preparation,but since he wanted the glory just for himself,he decided to climb the mountain all alone.

The night felt heavy in the heights of the mountain,and the man could not see a thing.Zero visibility and the moon nd stars were covered by clouds.

as he was climbing only a few feet away from the top of the mountain,he slipped nd fell into the air,falling at great speed.the climber could only see balck spots as he went down and the terrible sensation of being sucked by gravity.he kept falling ......nd in those moments of great fear,it came to his mind all the good and bad episodes of his life.

he was thinking now abt how close death was getting..when all of a sudden he felt a rope tied to his waist pulling him very hard.

his body was hanging in the air nd only the rope was holding him nd in that moment of stillness he had no other choice but to scream...GOD PLEASE HELP!!!!

all of a sudden a deep voice came from the sky and answered "what do u want me to do?"
-"
save me god"

"do u really think i can save u?"
"of course , i blv u can"

"THEN CUT THE ROPE TIED TO UR WAIST"
there was a moment of silence,then the man decided to hole on to the rope as tighty as possible.

the rescue team tells that the next day, a climber was found dead and frozen.......
his body hanging from a rope..... his hands holding tight to it....
ONLY 10 FEET AWAY FROM THE GROUND

and...u ...how attached r u to the rope?
will u let go?

dont ever doubt the things from God.U never should say tht He doesn care or has forgotten u.remember that he's always holding u in His right hand....

Rich.....or....Poor

2006-06-24T08:33:00.000-07:00

One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to
the
country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people live.

They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be
considered a very poor family.

On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was
the
trip?"

"It was great, Dad."
"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.
"Oh yeah," said the son.

"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.

>The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four.
>
>We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have
a
>creek that has no end.
>
>We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at
night.
>
>Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon.
>
>We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go
>beyond
>our sight.
>
>We have servants who serve us, but they serve others.
>
>We buy our food, but they grow theirs.
>
>We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to
>protect them."
>
>The boy's father was speechless.
>
>Then his son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are."
>
>Isn't perspective a wonderful thing?
>
>Makes you wonder what would happen if we all gave thanks for
everything we
>have, instead of worrying about what we don't have.
>
>Appreciate every single thing you have, especially your friends!
>
>"Life is too short and good friends are too few."
>
>
>GOD never makes mistakes.
>When God pushes you over the cliff only one out of two things can
happen.
>Either He is ready to hold you when you are falling or He is ready to
teach
>you to FLY.
>

What's more important...???????

2006-06-24T08:09:00.000-07:00

hey guys i came across this really neat one.
trust me this isn't the usual chicken soup crap that
you read every other time.

When things in your life seem almost too much to
handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough,
remember the mayonnaise jar...and the coffee...

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had
some items in front of him. When the class began,
wordlessly, he picked up a very large and
empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with
golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was
full. They answered yes.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and
poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the
golf balls.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full.
They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box
of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He
asked once more if the jarwas full. The students
responded with a infamous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from
under the table and poured the entire contents into
the jar, effectively filling the empty space between
the sand.
The students laughed. "Now," said the professor, as
the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that
this jar represents your life."

The golf balls are the important things-your family,
your children, your faith, your health, your friends,
and your favorite passions-things that if everything
else
was lost and only they remained, your life would still
be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your
job, your house, and your car.

The sand is everything else-the small stuff.

"If you put the sand into the jar first," he
continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the
golf balls.

The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and
energy on the small stuff, you will never have room
for the things that are important to you.
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your
happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get
medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner.
Play another 18. There will always be time to clean
the house and fix the disposal." Take care of the golf
balls first, the things that really matter. Set your
priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what
the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm
glad you asked. It just goes to show
you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee
with a friend."

mathematical view...

2006-06-22T08:52:00.000-07:00

From a strictly mathematical viewpoint:

What Equals 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been in situations where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 101%? What equals 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions:

If: A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

Is represented:1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26

Then:

H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K: 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

And

K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E: 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But,

A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E: 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

AND, look how far the love of God will take you!

L-O-V-E-O-F-G-O-D: 12+15+22+5+15+6+7+15+4 = 101%

Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that: While hard work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, it's the Love of God that will put you over the top.

read this one plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2006-06-12T08:18:00.001-07:00

This one is meant to touch your heart.....!

Most daughters are adamant and have their own sweet ways to get things done.
'How long will you be poring over that newspaper? Will you come here right away and make your darling daughter eat her food?'
I tossed the paper away and rushed to the scene. My only daughter Sindu looked frightened. Tears were welling up in her eyes. In front of her was a bowl filled to its brim
with Curd Rice. Sindu is a nice child, quite intelligent for her age.
She has just turned eight. She particularly detested Curd Rice. My mother and my wife are orthodox, and believe firmly in the 'cooling effects' of Curd Rice!
I cleared my throat, and picked up the bowl. "Sindu, darling, why don't you take a few mouthful of this Curd Rice? Just for Dad's sake,dear. And, if you don't, your Mom will
shout at me'
I could sense my wife's scowl behind my back. Sindu softened a bit,and wiped her tears with the back of her hands.
'OK, Dad. I will eat - not just a few mouthfuls, but the whole lot of this.But, you should...' Sindu hesitated. 'Dad, if I eat this entire Curd Rice, will you give me whatever I ask
for?'
'Oh sure, darling'.
'Promise?'
'Promise' I covered the pink soft hand extended by my daughter with mine, and clinched the deal.
'Ask Mom also to give a similar promise', my daughter insisted. My wife slapped her hand on Sindu's, muttering 'Promise', without any emotion.
Now I became a bit anxious. 'Sindumma, you shouldn't insist on getting a computer or any such expensive items. Dad does not have that kind of money right now. OK?'
'No, Dad. I do not want anything expensive'. Slowly and painfully, she finished eating the whole quantity. I was silently angry with my wife and my mother for forcing my
child eat something that she detested.
After the ordeal was through, Sindu came to me with her eyes wide with expectation. All our attention was on her.
'Dad, I want to have my head shaved off, this Sunday!' was her demand!
'Atrocious!' shouted my wife, 'a girl child having her head shaved off? Impossible!'.
'Never in our family!' my mother rasped. 'She has been watching too much of television. Our culture is getting totally spoiled with these TV programs!'
'Sindumma, why don't you ask for something else? We will be sad seeing you with a clean-shaven head.'
'No, Dad. I do not want anything else', Sindu said with finality.
'Please, Sindu, why don't you try to understand our feelings?' I tried to plead with her.
'Dad, you saw how difficult it was for me to eat that Curd Rice'.
Sindu was in tears. 'And you promised to grant me whatever I ask for. Now, you are going back on your words. Was it not you who told me the story of King Harishchandra,
and its moral that we should honour our promises no matter what?'
It was time for me to call the shots. 'Our promise must be kept.'
'Are you out your mind?' chorused my mother and wife.
'No. If we go back on our promises, she will never learn to honour her own. Sindu, your wish will be fulfilled.'
With her head clean-shaven, Sindu had a round-face, and her eyes looked big & beautiful.
On Monday morning, I dropped her at her school. It was a sight to watch my hairless Sindu walking towards her classroom. She turned around and waved. I waved back
with a smile. Just then, a boy alighted from a car, and shouted, 'Sinduja, please wait for me!' What struck me was the hairless head of that boy. 'May be, that is the in-stuff',
I thought.
'Sir, your daughter Sinduja is great indeed!' Without introducing herself, a lady got out of the car, and continued, 'That boy who is walking along with your daughter is my son
Harish. He is suffering from leukemia.' She paused to muffle her sobs.
'Harish could not attend the school for the whole of the last month. He lost all his hair due to the side effects of the chemotherapy. He refused to come back to school fearing
the unintentional but cruel teasing of the schoolmates. Sinduja visited him last week, and promised him that she will take care of the teasing issue. But, I never imagined she
would sacrifice her lovely hair for the sake of my son! Sir, you and your wife are blessed to have such a noble soul as your daughter.'
I stood transfixed. And then, I wept. 'My little Angel, will you grant me a boon? Should there be another birth for me, will you be my mother, and teach me what Love is?

WHAT IS SUCCESS???

2006-06-12T01:48:00.000-07:00

To laugh often and love much;
to win the respect of intelligent ppl
and the affection of children.
To earn the approval of honest critics
and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty;
To find the best in others;
To give of one's self without the
slightest thought of return;
To have accomplished a task,whether
a healthy child,a rescued soul,a
garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To have played and laughed with
Enthusiasm and sung with exaltation;
To know that even one life has breathed
easier because you have lived;
This is to have succeeded.

RESULTS!!!!!!!

2006-06-10T09:20:00.000-07:00

Results!!!!!!!!..........firstly, they were extremely dissapointing ....heartbraking to say the least.. but there's nothing I can do abt it now..... scored 86.4% overall but my applied nutrition & dietetics marks were horrible. I was expecting atleast a 90 but scored much lesser than that(77%)....I think the person was mentally disturbed or something when he corrected my paper...well...atleast that's the only explanation I can possibly give for the kind of marks I've got
Honesly,I really cant understand y I'm so upset bt these marks...i'm not that kind of a person....... i'v e been reminding myself that i'll only learn if i make mistakes.ppl who dont learn from history r doomed.u learn from failure if u have the right attitude.failure is a delay not a defeat.experiance is the name v give to our mistakes.
actually, fear of failure is often worse than failure itself.ppl who dont try have failed even be4 attempting. well i atleast went nd attended my exams ....a few of my classmates didn even turn up in the exam hall....so i guess i'm a zillion times better
i was extremely ashamed today to even stand in front of my nutrition ma'm(coz she had very high expectations from me) but she was sooooo damn understanding nd was saying stuff like"its ok,just thank god that u didn get something more worse so i think in a way she was right. i've never in my whole life come across a person like her....i mean ....she's amazing, well...thats an understatement, the best person on this planet .....she's just done sooo much for us....every single lecture of her's apart from studies has had a profound impact in my life already...nd v've just known her for 9 months!!!!
i cant say how much her presence matters to me.i can never thank her enough...and i'm not going to try.....i'd rather stay indebted.......i've finally found a perfect mentor...a person who can guide me even during my toughest times, someone who can lend a ear for all the rubbish i generally blabber,i can talk to her about anything nd everything nd still not feel shy or ashamed.....nd the most astonishing part is that she's my lecturer!!!!!words fail to describe her.....i've just been extremely lucky to have someone like her in my life.....hats off to u, ma'm!!

the traffic here!!!!!!!!!!1

2006-06-03T08:15:00.000-07:00

well,i had to give my 2 wheeler for servicing today nd this was 1 day i was dreading the most
thr reason..........i HATE driving....yes, my head stars throbbing even at the slightest thought of having to drive
but, i've got no other option but to do it. nd to top it all it started raining here nd my scooty starting skidding nd it was getting dark nd i cudn c a thing in the front
nd like any other typical indian road....there was a horrible traffic jam nd u had cars honking...most of them for absolutely no reason whatsoever but i dont think v wud get to c a scene like this anywhere else in the world
so 3 cheers for the indian roads.................

hip,hip???????
hurray!!!!!!!

nd 3 cheers for the traffic jams
hip,hip????????//
hurray

neway, finally my college's reopening on the 5th......i just cant wait to get back....its bin damn boring..these 3 months....i'll finally be able to do my stuff.......bunking classes nd hiding in the college canteen.......cracking jokes in the calss....nd even reading harry potter when the class is going on or get the altest cricket scores on the mobile(even though cell phones r banned in educational institutions)...well,all of us like to break rules...dont v?????????actually,rules r meant to be broken.

i'll finally be able to meet all my friends nd talk the same old stuff..... i just cant wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-06-01T11:30:00.000-07:00

this is the 3rd time i'm creating a new blog nd i've gone absolutely sick nd tired of doin this again nd again
the worst part is i dont even know y i deleted my previous blogs in msn???????????
neway.....it's exactly midnight rite now nd i'm getting very bored but i just dunno wat to do...i never feel sleepy at all in the night...not sure whats wrong with me
nd worst of all...there arent ne cricket matches being played so i'm just sitting at home doin absolutely nothing nd sporting a red nose.........ahhhhhhhhhhhh
i'll post a better one later !!!!!!!!!!!